Bye Sabby

While sitting at Starbucks and doing uni apps with SH, I can't help but think about what happened the night before. Even right now, my fingers typing across the keyboard, are limp, are shaky. I can still remember last night when I realised, Sabby's gone. I knew she wasn't running alot in her wheel, I knew she wasn't coming out from her house often, but why didn't I notice that this was something worse than just a little life feeling tired all the time?

A little life has left us, though annoying at times, the little furball brought so much joy and happiness :) She was known as Beach Ball Babes' pet, and Nero's girlfriend. Such a cute little thing could bring out so much emotions.

Really, this feels even worse than anything else. But I was quite sure the shock I got on the night I realised wasn't something I thought would happen to me. The fear of touching her, the fear of being quite certain she isn't breathing anymore scared me. I panicked, but I still didn't dare touch her. If I really touched her and she's really cold, it'll confirm my worst fears. So I just sat there like a dumb person.

And so I went downstairs with the help of my dad to let Sabby have a nice burial and make sure she won't be dug up. :')

Still feeling a little weird whenever I look at the empty cage but I know this feeling would be over soon, so at least if I were to blog it, Sabby would still always remain somewhere. It'll never be the same getting another new hamster again, but Sabby will always be in my heart <3 and will be constantly in my mind :)

Luv, Olliee

This is the scene which changed everything.

Determination // Inspiration // Admitting

hey ;)

[caption id="attachment_1013" align="aligncenter" width="660"] can you see the stars?[/caption]

So ONE HELL OF A COINCIDENCE and met the same running guy while running at night again, just that I was ending alr and he was starting. Actually I forgot his name oops starts with F I think!! Anyway, started chatting with him breathlessly since I didn't have any breath left about random stuff.

Actually he's been running for over a year now, and even though he doesn't look fit, he has been running >5km everyday. AND he has already lost more than 50kg just by running. DO YOU SEE THAT DETERMINATION??? That is CRAZY. He said

Just don't give up and persevere, you'll definitely see results

Which I totally agree. I don't even have the determination to run everyday since I am so busy with random stuff, (but I don't count myself busy meeting with my friends ;) ) and I'm just totally inspired by his determination!!

Started talking about studies and what I wanted to take in the future (which I don't even want to think about right now but seems like it's a topic that everyone likes so ohwell) and actually I already know what I want. It's just the grades. I am quite sure my grades won't be able to make it to the course I want which is why I have so many back up plans and trying to detach myself from my inclination to the course to reduce impact. (KIDDING) [reduce devastation] LOL. But as long as I don't think about it too much it'll be really easy for me to receive grades I have already prepared myself for!!! ;))

Anyway, he was really positive and kept saying "You should be more optimistic!!!" "Things will turn out fine in the end!!!" "Always look at the bright side!!!" 

Quite sure I'm a super optimistic person but I can't handle devastation that well so being less optimistic from time to time helps ;))

But seriously, he was a super inspiring person!!! I even ran another 1km with him after I'm done LOL WOWZIES.

Deep musing sux I really hate it why think about life why know stuff why admit your emotions when you're better off being oblivious to them??? So I will not admit to such horrible emotions because I will not allow myself to have them!!!

DETERMINED xx

Ok anyway everyone else worrying about anything stay strong!!! It's all going to be over soon :))))

Luv, Olliee

Sidenote:

[caption id="attachment_1012" align="aligncenter" width="660"] got locked out of the house cause I forgot my keys LOL[/caption]

[caption id="attachment_1014" align="aligncenter" width="660"] and I bathed sabby cause she was dirty af ._.[/caption]

Theory Driving e-learning // Voice is coming back! (I think) // Nero and Sabby<3

heyy ;))

Slept in and stayed at home the whole day today in mah pajammies and noob glasses and bun-ed auntie hair to clear up any overdue stuff which I have to finish (actually it's just really random stuff)

My voice was getting better but I kinda quarrelled with my mum again so I didn't have to use my voice at all. (means no talking today and I really don't know how my voice's progressing since I don't have to talk to anyone) Hate eating meds but have to eat them if not my voice won't come back by Tuesday :((

Did my e-learning for Basic Theory Test (BTT) since I have my practice test tomorrow, and so just chiong-ed today. Finished all 4 lessons in 2h WOOOOO!!! Hope I pass tomorrow but sua. I signed up for SSDC at Woodlands since I heard that it was easier to pass for the practical (I'm actually not very sure) since there were less cars in Woodlands than in Ubi. And as long as I finish BTT and FTT, and do my best to learn practical driving lessons in under 20 lessons and pass the final driving test, the total amount I would have paid would be under $2000. Really budgeted but SAVE MONEY LA.

Learned alot of new stuff about the road signs and markings and all the shit and rules you have to know. It was actually quite interesting since it was applicable to real life EVERYWHERE and there were actually some signs which I haven't seen before.

[caption id="attachment_610" align="aligncenter" width="120"] like this[/caption]

LOL

Washed my hammie's cages after not washing for quite a while (sorry Nero and Sabby!!) So here's their clean cages and happy hammies :))









[caption id="attachment_614" align="aligncenter" width="225"] sorry cui face x10000000000 but nero is the highlight!![/caption]

Thought about so much stuff today, and still haven't finished writing my personal statement for UCAS ._. But thinking about it I also wanna study in NUS :( or at least in Singapore since everyone's here!! And maybe go for like exchange or something ahha AIYA IDK LA WHAT IS LIFE WHAT IS UNI MAN.

No matter what I'll have to wait till after my results are out before I can even decide what I want in uni, so right now, I'll just have to wait! And going out with people actually takes my mind off these stressful stuff; maybe doing this for a day is ok, doing this for consecutive days, I'LL DEFINITELY GO CRAZY.

Oh well, at least Nero and Sabby's here with me <3 But I have to go and buy more hamster food there's no more left at home._.

okiee here's just my life update. my life is forever boring. :( but i already miss my friends. i am so needy. kidding hehe sua see you!

Luv, Olliee