Musings // Hitting the big 2

hello! :-))

I'm quite sure this post is long overdue but it's alright man because better late than never right?

This is another post for everyone, who've been supporting me all these while, throughout all these months/years when I'm at my lowest (probably), and when I am not the best person to be with (sometimes).

disclaimer: fucking cheesy I think so if u can't stand it plz dun read k :-)

This sem hasn't been really easy, with so much stuff going on about camps at the start (and maybe even now). But I'm really glad that it has finally concluded and all, after > 4 weeks of investigations. It has really affected my mood towards many things, regardless of whether I choose to believe it or not. I knew that the loss of a loved one wouldn't be easy, but I thought I would get over it quickly, but that is also not true.

<3

NEVERTHELESS,

I know my friends and family are still supporting me :-)

And during my birthday, they celebrated for me. Although it was a mini celebration, I was rly touched by it cause it was the start of mid-terms week and all and I was rly glad they remembered :') That week I met up with many whom I hold dear to, even though it was only for a meal, it was really great catching up with everyone. Tbh, I'm rly rly rly grateful to everyone who celebrated my birthday cause I don't really celebrate much LOL.

got this from ass ya!! :-)

hello noob

ex-tablemates ya!!!

janeywaney

bbb

MOVING ON, I received the email from STEERnus, and I. AM. GOING. COSTA. RICAAAAA. I literally felt like oct is a new month new me kinda month, and I actually already expected a rejection email from them. BUT guess what I DIDN'T!! I have been eyeing this trip since last year??? And I actually got to go??? Once I got the email I was so excited I started to spam wendz and even went to the gym to run to burn off the extra energy HAHA. On the other hand I was rly sad I won't be able to make it for my Bintan trip with Janey Waney and ZoukOut SOBZ :-( sorry guys I burden :-(( I will make it up to u ya!! (@janeywaney) LOL.

Alrighty, then on wed (5/10) there was TGIWagon organised by Zouk, and everyone came to my room to predrink before. But guess what again??? They gave me a GOPRO????? I have been eyeing this since FOREVER since I've realised that Hero5 was coming out and I was so so so ready to buy it once it was out on 2nd Oct but whhhuuuuuttttt???? HOLY SHIT. Like. I'm quite sure I looked rly stunned and I didn't cry but that because the shock >>>>>> happiness. HAHAH. I literally just stun there man. HUUUUHHH???? As in, rn I'm still in shock but when I got it it was so OVERWHELMING. In my head was just 'omg rly rly rly is this real is this not a dream is this a gopro is this a toy is this fake is this not real is this really a present'. My thoughts were just jumbled up everywhere at that moment. And I was fucking speechless. I rly rly never expected anyone to do this for me?????? huuUUUuuuuuhHhhHHHH. THANKS GUYSSSS :'))))))))))))))))) (dayum shld have taken a photo inside the room SOBZ)

Say hello to mah NEW BABY

The number of chins I put for my smiley face above just can't describe how grateful I am. I am so so so so so thankful for everyone who contributed to this cause I know this is fucking expensive. I WILL TAKE CARE OF IT YA AND TAKE RLY NICE VIDS!!!!! :-))))))) And I know it's rly been hard for yall Bali gang for coordinating all of this so thank u!!!!!!! I like how yall called it lizard fund so gross tho.

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THX GUYS :-)))))))

I tried my best to hav a photo from T house peeps as much as possible :-))) <3

And Finneon ya!!! :-)))) thx guys :-)

And dong hahahah gud job not messing this surprise cause I legitly thought that it was gonna be a wallet LOL. What wld I do wo yall manz T.T

wad wld i do wo u <3 (oh and twinning outfits ya)

On Thurs although everyone was shag as hell we still went for HHN6 @ USS which was A M A Z E B A L L Z. Altho there was a hiccup during entrance I'M SO GLAD WE CONQUERED IT (altho I literally panicked) but all's well!!! The queue for all the haunted houses were so short (around 30-40min) we finished all 5 by 10.30pm. Which was really early, since we got to watch the HHN performance and even got to take the rides at USS. I got to video it using my gopro but it was rly dark so the footage was rly grainy and dark sobz :-(( But here's the vid tho! :-)

It was rly rly rly amazing so highly recommend ya!!! Compared to last year where I went on a popular + one of the later days so it was rly packed and we cld only go for 2-3 haunted houses and the queues were arnd 1h++ :-((( But this year there wasn't as many scare zones but it's ok!!!! Highly recommend the clowns one (Bodies of Work) and Old Changi Hospital!!! rly rly vvvv scary HAHAHA but after that I just laughed hahaha.

You can see more of my experience in HHN6 here:-)

HHN6!!!

Anyway, it's really funny how life works sometimes??? It's really full of ups and downs like a fucking rollercoaster but only with the bad parts it rly makes you cherish the good parts more. Life can be a fucking dickhead and for months felt like there's a black cloud over my head but it's really starting to clear (studies aside HAHA). Being at rock bottom is really rock bottom but when you are slowly moving up again every single thing you will rly cherish with the bottom of your heart and that's what I may have been lacking for taking many things for granted???

There are really many ways to deal with rejection and disappointments but how you perceive it actually affects how you face it. Either way, in the future, you'll prolly look back and be like 'ya I've been through it and it's over' and that feeling is THE BEST.


BUT BACK ON TOPIC YA.

Thank you for being there for me :-))) fucking cheesy and fucking gross but still nid to b said yaaaa.

Luv, Tingz

The BEST birthday present

hey ;)

YAY ok lemme just enjoy the few more minutes of my birthday <3 HAHAHH

My mom made this!! <3

Spent my birthday a little unusually this year, with the start being ahem ahem LOL. Last night MY and Theresa came to my hall to drink and they really surprised me with a cake!!! :>

I really got damn shocked cause I didn't expect them to get a cake for me <3 Love you guys :') I was really really really touched!!!!

Then yupz Dong and Leumas came by before going together ^^

Anyway, I met up with BBB at vivo to eat lunch at Marche. And Dong was just quite fail at making the non-surprise a surprise and she was desperately trying to save what's left of the surprise LOL. HAHAHA. Last year for my birthday we also went for Marche, but this year's a little different, cause we are missing 2 of our BBBs :( Ass and Nhu are overseas studying now which makes me feel so empty, like there's something missing even when we were together. But I really really really missed hanging out with all of them, and catching up with BBB. Guys I rly missed uall <3

And we just did really random life updates which were stupid but hilarious HAHA. And just chatted about about all our worries, troubles, basically just life. I felt so comfortable talking to them and actually their existence and them being there for lunch with me was already a really really really great birthday present <3

(Marche was really good omg AHHAHA)

ALI STOP POKING ME

Actually they gave me a OBEY shirt which was actually quite funny AHAHA I would never wear it actually but ok la I will wear it for y'all k since y'all bought this for me <3 HAHHAHAH.

Went home after to have dinner with my family, and when I reached home my mom was making a birthday cake for me <3 OMG I was really really really touched cause we kinda quarreled before that which made me feel really shitty about going home but she still made me a cake :')

Ordered Pizza Hut for dinner in the end cause my brother refused to go out to eat dinner, but at least we got to eat the new cheesy pizza which was INSANELY DELICIOUS. OMG I really loved it. And the truth is actually my dad forgot about my birthday also LOL.

Initially he wasn't coming home to eat dinner, but I think my mom called him again to ask him to come home to eat LOL. And my dad just went "why you never tell me today your birthday"

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HAHHA I got nothing to say but aiya I don't really care about that la lol.

OK anyway just chilled at home watching movies and falling asleep.

AND THEN

Janey Waney chat started coming up. IDK but I felt a sense of familiarity just talking to them on the group and spamming and reliving JC days when our group chat can actually be spammed so so so so so much <3 And we were even searching for photos from our JC days and actually we all changed, regardless big or small, the change is still there. And because we are all in different schools (except for me and Lars but Lars med forever busy :( ), naturally we would have drifted away and distanced. But whenever we come together to start talking, it just felt like we didn't stop talking, just that we are really outdated about each other's lives so we NEED some catching up to do.

Janey Waney!! <3

Really, I feel so blessed to have all of these real and genuine friends in my life, where we just say what we feel and not try and hide anything. Being able to just be myself and talk to them is really really relaxing, like how we can talk about anything under the sun <3 Uni life may have taken up most of our time, but it hasn't taken a toll on our relationship. I won't say what my wish was when I blew the candle, but I really hope that it's one that will come true :>

OH and thanks for everyone who wished me throughout the day <3 I was really really touched by all the messages!

I think it's the effort and thought that counts and I'm really so grateful meeting each and everyone of y'all <3

And I got to talk to people I haven't talked to for a very very very very long time, which I really missed and I wished I had more time to meet up with everyone :> I've learnt to cherish everything that I have and all of you are my favorite gifts :>

Luv